Along the way I’ve observed that those in pain, including myself, often have trouble properly expressing those feelings. It’s often easier to lash out in anger than to express the emotions locked inside. In the absence of words, a snarl or a growl seems to be sufficient to express the turmoil inside.
In the past, I was paralyzed by the possibility of rejection, so I attempted to build an impenetrable shield around my heart—armor-plating it for safety. I locked myself in. But the loneliness was too much for my fragile spirit to bear, so I wielded my anger, my hurt, and my frustration like a double-edged sword. I lashed out at those around me, desperately trying to eliminate the pain and loneliness that haunted my every step.
I spent so much time protecting myself from perceived attacks that I had no more time or room in my heart for joy. I saw every word as a parry, every inflection as a thrust. I was constantly on the attack, erroneously assuming the world was doing the same, thus creating my own warped version of reality filled and overflowing with constant war and pain.
Thankfully, I discovered a better way—God’s way. He effortlessly eradicated the monstrous barriers I spent years carefully building. He melted my resolve and offered me His perfect peace. Once I finally opened my heart, He brought love, joy, and acceptance into my life; my snarls and growls were replaced by laughter and healing.
So join me as I continue to focus on God, allowing Him to keep my heart safe from the ravages of the world—the pain that continually knocks at the door and the anger that prowls in the night. Join me as I determine to let the light of God’s love be the only protection I need from the darkness of this sinful world.
Final Thought: God’s way is always better—always.
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